Major update

[WillyCamaro]

Oh, and only 0.3% of the world population have it. Pretty crazy, isn't it.

[CarMan]

Well fella's, now I have the full answers to my stuff.

I'll come out straight. I've been hammered so much these past 20 years, my brain has forced itself past bipolar, into the schizophrenia spectrum.

I officially have what's called "schizoaffective disorder"
It's as literally as far as you can go into illness.

Yes, it's awful, but, and it's a huge but. With the proper meds, and a life's routine, there's a very high chance if it going into remission, that's the findings out of the Yale school of medicine.

I'm well guys. Just have to do what I need to do, and I'll be well.

And thank you for letting me share this with everyone Brian and Dale, it truly is helping me to overcome the shame of carrying what I carry.

God bless each and everyone of you.

Shame? I don’t think so. Everyone has something, some (like yourself) are just stronger than others and shoulder what others can’t imagine. Shame would be trying to carry this alone and not giving credit to our Heavenly Father when progress is made. There’s no shame, only a young man making great strides while battling the demons inside. Personally I’m impressed with your strength and faith.

[djknife13]

May God continue to bless and protect you my friend.____Dave

[bighomer]

God bless you brother, stay the course with your meds and trust in the Lord, he'll see you through.

[WillyCamaro]

Thank you gentleman.

[Ridgegrass]

Thinking about you Willie and pulling for you. You're a good man. J.O'.

[orvet]

Still praying for you Willy!

[WillyCamaro]

Thank you so much John, thank you Dale. It truly means the world to me.


As I type this listening to "Is He Worthy", and back at the farm for Easter. It strikes me that even though I've gone through the meat grinder my entire life, I now know without a shadow of doubt, He is TOTALLY IN CONTROL.

No matter what Happens in this life, ultimately, He holds me in His hand, never to be let go. His grace truly is amazing grace.

I look at the sunset out on my walk earlier, and it strikes me with the beauty of are great artist and king.

God bless and happy Easter all. God bless all!

[cudgee]

Thank you so much John, thank you Dale. It truly means the world to me.


As I type this listening to "Is He Worthy", and back at the farm for Easter. It strikes me that even though I've gone through the meat grinder my entire life, I now know without a shadow of doubt, He is TOTALLY IN CONTROL.

No matter what Happens in this life, ultimately, He holds me in His hand, never to be let go. His grace truly is amazing grace.

I look at the sunset out on my walk earlier, and it strikes me with the beauty of are great artist and king.

God bless and happy Easter all. God bless all!

And all the best to you for Easter. Have a safe and peaceful one.

[Reverand]

Amen, well said!

[CarMan]

Happy Resurrection Day to you.

[bighomer]

God bless you Willie, with what you go through with it would be easy to be bitter, but you are wonderffy upbeat and love the Lord, keep the faith young feller we are pulling for you.

[orvet]

God bless you Willie, with what you go through with it would be easy to be bitter, but you are wonderffy upbeat and love the Lord, keep the faith young feller we are pulling for you.

AMEN!

[WillyCamaro]

To be honest gentlemen, it's utterly exhausting trying to navigate everything that I carry. The only reason I'm still sane in all of it, is the right help in the nick of time, medically. And all my supports that I have.
Every Tuesday night we have Men's fellowship and accountability. The Lord truly has sent these Men, and their families into my life. They've been with me through some exceedingly difficult day's.

My lead pastor Brian is counselling me now. We've started my Baptism classes. First one was going over the gospel.
Truly within the very fabric of my soul, and with my mind, I believe on Jesus as my precious Lord and mighty Savior. And when I say God had a plan for are lives, it is the plan of salvation to redeem a lost and wretched humanity. And call us His own, to know us as His adopted Children, in Lord Jesus.

I have 7 major things that I carry gentleman. A lot of it too hard to talk about here on a public forum. But, yet. My savior's great mercy is truly great! For he redeems the lost, and at the end of the day, that is what matters.
Even if are bodies start fall apart really, really early in life; I know I am forgiven, and one day will be walking through those gates, and standing before Him who redeemed me.

God bless you gentlemen!

[orvet]

It is the grace of God that our bodies do break down and that we cannot live forever in the fallen state in which we currently live. Otherwise, without the breakdown of our bodies and our eventual death, we would live forever in this world and never know God’s full presence.
I believe that this life is our training ground, like boot camp is to the military, this life trains us for our eternal life. I remember going through boot camp in the Marine Corps and nothing seemed fair about it. One guy makes a mistake and everyone gets punished. There was a reason for that, it was to teach us to act as a unit. It was to teach us to correct and help our fellow Marines.
We have such a small view of the universe, and even a smaller view of eternity. Our minds cannot understand the vastness of God, His goodness, majesty and glory. As the Apostle Paul said, “For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.”
Only when we leave this world and this life will we know fully as we are known.

[doglegg]

It is the grace of God that our bodies do break down and that we cannot live forever in the fallen state in which we currently live. Otherwise, without the breakdown of our bodies and our eventual death, we would live forever in this world and never know God’s full presence.
I believe that this life is our training ground, like boot camp is to the military, this life trains us for our eternal life. I remember going through boot camp in the Marine Corps and nothing seemed fair about it. One guy makes a mistake and everyone gets punished. There was a reason for that, it was to teach us to act as a unit. It was to teach us to correct and help our fellow Marines.
We have such a small view of the universe, and even a smaller view of eternity. Our minds cannot understand the vastness of God, His goodness, majesty and glory. As the Apostle Paul said, “For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.”
Only when we leave this world and this life will we know fully as we are known.

Well said.

[Reverand]

I am also thankful for the grace of Jesus, for there is not a single person who has not sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Especially me!

[bighomer]

AMEN AND AMEN

[WillyCamaro]

Gentleman, something happened a few days ago, that like John Bunyan, my chains are finally broken, I finally understand the Love and Mercy of Jesus to me, and I finally have peace.

By the grace of God, I was in devotionals that evening, and in plain language, it led me straight to Jesus, and I had a choice.
Either I could keep on trying to work all this pain of mine. All my past, all my present struggles. All the sin that was slowly chewing a hole wide open in my soul.

I could keep on carrying all of it on myself, wailing on myself, not laying my burdens at the feet of Jesus, and slowly get ground down to powder.

Or, I could lay it all at Jesus feet. I could labor no longer in striving to work harder, earn God's approval by my own works. That I could rest from the hell that I've gone through.
Well, I finally know what the grace and mercy of Jesus is.

For 12 years now, I have been blinded to the fact that Jesus truly, and absolutely, loves me. He died for me, to take the burden of sin upon Himself, and give me rest in Himself. He really does reconcile us to Himself, are Lord and Savior.
I am forgiven, and I know that now.
How do I know that for an absolute fact?

Well, He went to the cross of torture for us. He was nailed to that cross for me. His flesh was ripped apart in the flogging.
Nails pierced His hands and feet for me. He hung there there for all those hours, for me.
And finally, He cried it is finished, and it is done. The price has been paid in full!
His side was pierced for me. That river of blood and water that flowed, represents being washed clean.

All my sin, all my pain. All my pride and selfishness. All my sickness, all my guilt. Nailed to Him in those nails.
When He cried it is finished, the law was made complete. There is nothing more I can ever do to earn or work for anything, it is finished upon that cross.

Why did He do all of this for me. Because He is the love gift given for me and you.

"For God so loved the World that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall now perish, but have eternal life"

And now, in the washing, you and I are made clean. Paul hammers that fact home throughout the book of Romans.

I'm finally clean guys, and at rest.

And even more so, in this redemption, God almighty adopts us as his children. And we can now look to that Father who isn't angry with us, but loves us. For He does not see us as ourselves, but He see's are beloved savior when He looks at us.
Always to be held in His arms, for all of eternity.

Guys, I will finally say it again. I am finally at rest, and have peace with God.

God almighty bless you all!

[Lansky1]

Glad to hear you're doing so much better Willy - makes me really happy that the Lord has blessed you & your life has improved greatly.

[1967redrider]

Glad to read this, Willy.

[WillyCamaro]

Do you know on May the 24th of this year, some 2000 years ago, was the day of Pentecost.

They've scientificly calculated that, this year, Easter fell on the exact same day as when are Lord as Savior was crucified and rose again.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/ho ... r-AA1EyuNO

Do you know why I bring up the 24th...

[WillyCamaro]

God bless all!

Sunday is the day.
I pray God be glorified in all of it, that I may be set aside, and He gets all, every bit, everything, all the glory. All I am is a victory of Him, and that makes me rejoice! Because He will never let go of those who He died for! Oh what glorious truth it is to be called a child of Him!
Peace through Him is such a wonderful thing, the only way to know what it's like to experience it for yourself, for all of eternity.
Peace, rest, and Hope. Salvation in Him, His grace poured out for me, you, all His children.
Oh what glorious truth it is!

[WillyCamaro]

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CYhYbGZB8 ... QgY2h1cmNo

This hell bound sinner has been redeemed by grace alone. I'm at peace now, peace the world can never offer.

And please forgive me for the slur in my voice. I never learned how to speak clearly, and a wack ton of nerves...

God bless everyone!
God truly does use people and places you would've never ever believed. Thank you fellers, I truly, from the bottom of my heart, am blessed by your companionship and mentoring. Even if it's over great distance, online and over the phone.

Oh, and Happy Pentecost! He is risen indeed!

[CarMan]

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CYhYbGZB8 ... QgY2h1cmNo

This hell bound sinner has been redeemed by grace alone. I'm at peace now, peace the world can never offer.

And please forgive me for the slur in my voice. I never learned how to speak clearly, and a wack ton of nerves...

God bless everyone!
God truly does use people and places you would've never ever believed. Thank you fellers, I truly, from the bottom of my heart, am blessed by your companionship and mentoring. Even if it's over great distance, online and over the phone.

Oh, and Happy Pentecost! He is risen indeed!

Thank you for having the courage to share your testimony. My wife and I homeschooled our 4 children until high school. Not to keep them away from people or isolate them, but to give them a better CHRISTian start to life & teach them how to think NOT what to think. They are now 22 to 32 years old. It is a lot of work, but watching your testimony proves that your parents did it right. Keep pushing & thank you again for your courage and strength through CHRIST, who you give all credit to.
John